I miss everyone! I'm glad some of you are on facebook so that I can keep up with some of the things in your life. It is too hard for me to get on here and read what you are running everyday.....it just about kills me! :( It's been 6 weeks since surgery. My knee is feeling and looking better. I have 2 more weeks before I go in to see the doctor. I have been trying to be really good.....which is REALLY hard for me. The weather has been so beautiful, the mountains are green and I can only imagine what they are smelling like right now. I still wake up some times and think it has all just been a bad dream until reality hits me again. I keep thinking that I hope there is running and hiking in heaven. I can't believe that I will never feel the feeling that I love ever again. Part of what I love about running and hiking is how hard it is though and if we have perfect bodies in heaven, I don't think running and hiking will be difficult, so it makes me sad because what I love is the pushing myself when my legs and my body just feel like they can't go anymore. I love the feeling of exhaustion and pain that comes from running and hiking........I can't explain it really, I just love it.....and I am so completely sad that I won't ever have that again. I know, I know....very shallow of me to be thinking that I want to do this stuff in heaven. I don't know what it will be like there, but I am hoping that we can still do the things we love here because I can't imagine it being heaven if we can't! I hope none of you have anything like this happen to you. Injuries are hard, but you still know that it is only for a time and you will be back at it, and the starting over again is kind of a fun challenge to get yourself back in good shape. This is really unbearable. I keep tearing up EVERY single day when I am out and see someone running. I am usually a really positive person and I thought it would take me a week or two to get things under control, but I am still so sad every single day! I guess that is why I am dreaming about running and hiking in heaven so that I have something to look forward to and hope that I will be able to run again. My hub did buy me a bike the day before Mother's Day for my present from him and the kids. He has been wonderful to me. He works so many hours and is so stressed out all of the time that he has put on about 20 pounds that he just can't get off. He wakes up at 4:30 to be able to exercise before work and some mornings he is so tired that he just doesn't do it. He told me that we can just grow fat and old together. He bought himself a bike too and thought that maybe we can actually be able to exercise together.......but, he never really has any extra time. My bike is a mountain bike. He asked around and a guy that he works with that is a big biker said that mountain bikes give you a better workout even if you use them on the road, so that is what he got me. It is a Specialized Jett. I don't know anything about bikes yet, but I am sure I will figure it out. One thing I have learned is that biking outfits are more expensive than running ones and they are UGLY! I love my cute running skirts, I guess I will be wearing those on my bike to make me feel better! ha!! Me, my hub and my new bike that I can't ride yet! 
3 weeks out.... 
One month out.... The line on my other leg is from the clothes I had on. It looks funny. 
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